This is a can't day and I'm going to feel it

I've been trying to be positive. And generally I make it. But there is no making lemons out of lemon aid today. I want the auto pitcher to stop throwing fastballs at me. Just for a bit. I'd like am underhand id like one important thing to fall into my lap. You know after I've spent so much freaking time shaking the tree. A single apple. SOMETHING to fall in place. Old thought: New thought: I'm at an impass here. I have nothing today.