Work in Progress

Transformation entails a lot of busy work. .... Forrest and I moved again - to Buena Park to live with my Sister-in-Law and her family.

Most of my intrusive thoughts are gone. Now I am working on transforming myself through action. Through the establishment of a routine.

I've lost 80 pounds. It's amazing how far I've come and a bit daunting to think of how far I have to go. In every aspect of my life. I'm trying to celebrate the victories large and small.

Victories:
I can sleep through the night without aid. ....

Insomnia is horrible. Not being able to fall asleep or stay asleep is a level of punishment not touched upon in Purgatorio. But it should be.

Tossing. Turning. Huffing, puffing. Crying. Not being able to sleep at night is torture. Having to use aids everynight for four years to sleep. Horrible.

So I can sleep at night without aid. I'm never going to be one of those people who just roll over and go to sleep. But I can sleep. And that is a major victory.