Progress

I'm changing the format of the blog today. And I hope to do it again a lot in the future. Today is about progress I've noticed. A month ago if someone would tell me I was attractive in any way I'd immediately think: What is wrong with you? Are you making fun of me? I'm disgusting. I guess you could say my self-worth was a bit damaged.

But I'm working on it. And today when someone asked me for my number and another person told me I looked sexy and another rolled down their window at the stop light to flirt with me, I just felt good. Not that I'm anywhere near where I'd like to be. But I'm taking pride in my appearance, wearing make up, clothes that make the best of my zatfig figure and I feel good about myself. I think that is the most important part. Happiness, calm and confidence are darned attractive things.

This week I also made another leap. I'm living somewhere that I needed to live right after I moved. I needed some tough love from a good friend of mine to help pull me from the mire. And while I still have a lot of work to do, I'm making strides. And this is no longer the best situation for me to be in.

I decided to move on and follow my intuition - even though moving now wasn't part of my original plan. In the past I've stuck to courses of action, whatever the cost. Of course, as soon as I decided to do that and felt good about the decision I got four call backs from some great companies. I doubted myself and my decision. But I had to listen to my gut for a change. And then something happened that showed why I needed to be here at this time for my friend as well as why I need to be gone.